[ How can the man he's learned to know and Xue Yang be one in the same? How can the kind stranger turned friend share the same body as the man who mercilessly slaughtered so many innocent people?
Xingchen feels the tug, but he shakes his head and backs away. He's disgusted with himself for having conflicting feelings at all. He knows the kind of man Xue Yang is.
Was?
He doesn't know that he's this man tricked him into killing so many other people. If he did, this would be even more difficult, the self-hatred even stronger. But isn't he the hypocrite? Even considering it knowing all of the lives Xue Yang has taken?
As if Xingchen's own hands are clean. ]
Zichen - Zichen has really forgiven you?
[ If Zichen can forgive him, when surely Zichen has been hurt the most, does it really mean Xue Yang has changed? What does it mean if he has? Should redemption mean nothing? Is punishment so much better than change?
What of their time in Yi City? The talks, their casual chores, the cooperation, the late nights spent by a warm fire? To Xingchen's knowledge, Xue Yang hasn't harmed anyone in that time. He's even helped in Xingchen's night hunts. ]
Was it all a trick?
[ Before Xue Yang can answer one question, Xingchen asks another. ]
Did you plan to kill me?
[ Mock him? Laugh at the lonely man who took so easily to a wounded drifter? ]
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Xingchen feels the tug, but he shakes his head and backs away. He's disgusted with himself for having conflicting feelings at all. He knows the kind of man Xue Yang is.
Was?
He doesn't know that he's this man tricked him into killing so many other people. If he did, this would be even more difficult, the self-hatred even stronger. But isn't he the hypocrite? Even considering it knowing all of the lives Xue Yang has taken?
As if Xingchen's own hands are clean. ]
Zichen - Zichen has really forgiven you?
[ If Zichen can forgive him, when surely Zichen has been hurt the most, does it really mean Xue Yang has changed? What does it mean if he has? Should redemption mean nothing? Is punishment so much better than change?
What of their time in Yi City? The talks, their casual chores, the cooperation, the late nights spent by a warm fire? To Xingchen's knowledge, Xue Yang hasn't harmed anyone in that time. He's even helped in Xingchen's night hunts. ]
Was it all a trick?
[ Before Xue Yang can answer one question, Xingchen asks another. ]
Did you plan to kill me?
[ Mock him? Laugh at the lonely man who took so easily to a wounded drifter? ]